Tag Archive: side effects

Sep 05

Is it hot in here, or is it just me?

OK, seriously, can we talk about the hot flashes???? turns out nurse G was meant to discuss this with me at some point. But I have a weird situation where I had the insides of my uterus burned with a balloon (I know, TMI) so when they ask about my last cycle, I have no …

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Aug 29

“Are you F*%*%**%G kidding me?”

That is what M. said to me when she found me lying in bed #19 of the ER yesterday, about 4 hours after I drove myself there…. I had the day all planned out, I was going to start pilates. My kid forgot her water bottle on her first day of school, so I thought …

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Jul 26

Why I’m not at work

In an innocent conversation with someone the other day, the person asked me why I wasn’t working. I mean, I own the store, I can come and go as I please, in theory, I really could be at work as much or as little as I want, so why am I not working? Many reasons. …

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Jul 18

Cancer is the pregnancy I never had

I’ve never been pregnant. My 2 fabulous daughters are adopted. Lately though, as I chronicle the daily and mundane of living through treatment, I realize this is the closest I’ve ever come to pregnancy. Allow me to explain: nausea and fatigue in the first 2 months weird food cravings: to combat the metal taste, I’ve …

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Jun 20

It’s the Unpredictability that gets me

Round 1 was OK. Round 2 was worse, but not in the way I had expected. Round 3 was The Pits, but only after giving me false hope of being ok. And now Round 4. The truth is, I didn’t have time for Round 4. I was busy. I packed up our cottage after we …

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Jun 08

The S-words of Cancer

Cancer starts with C, but it should start with S, because everything else to do with cancer seems to start with S: Scabs, Scars, Stubble.  And I seem to deal with these in the shower, which also starts with S. I just took a shower. It’s a horrifying experience every time. I know what I’m going to …

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Jun 06

I have nothing to say

I keep starting posts and erasing them. Writing FB status updates and not posting them. Essentially, they all sound like this: I feel like shit. I want to do stuff but whenever I start I (pick one): get tired, get dizzy, get nauseous, forget what I was going to do. My days consist of: watching …

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May 19


By far, the biggest adjustment for me with this whole situation has been adapting to the extreme boredom and long periods of being alone. I went from working retail, talking to the public and spending 4-6 hours per day hanging out with Dee to being alone in my house from 8 am til 4:30 pm almost …

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Mar 30

And now, I’m all swollen

it’s very one step forward, one step back right now. I felt SO GOOD after the drains came out. Too good it seems. I walked a little, drove a tiny little bit – and it bit me in the ass. I am exhausted. More tired than I’ve been all week. And the fluid that was …

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Mar 29

2 week update

it’s been 2 weeks since my double mastectomy. Things I CAN do: brush my own hair with my right hand tie it loosely but crap-ily! get dressed on my own, as long as the tank top is VERY stretchy walk outside (1.1 km today) drive – ok, i just did this today, it hurt and i …

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