Tag Archive: scars

Mar 14

Risk Management

I hate the way my body looks now. It is riddled with scars, disfigured, mangled. I close my eyes when I walk into the bathroom, shower with my eyes shut and don’t open them until after I’ve at least put on a shirt. When I met Dr. Movie Star in January and he told me …

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Oct 24

You’re gonna hear me ROAR!

My kid came home yesterday with this powerful version of Katy Perry’s Roar, which I linked to on FB. Then my friend LV suggested I needed my own theme song. Lo and behold, this morning, one of my favorite fellow cancer-ass-kickers wrote and EXCELLENT post which I highly encourage you to read. It also included …

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Jun 08

The S-words of Cancer

Cancer starts with C, but it should start with S, because everything else to do with cancer seems to start with S: Scabs, Scars, Stubble.  And I seem to deal with these in the shower, which also starts with S. I just took a shower. It’s a horrifying experience every time. I know what I’m going to …

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Mar 31

Blind Showering

I have a giant mirror in my bathroom. But given that I have not gotten over my mental block yet, taking a shower has become a bit of a complicated thing. Why am I even writing about this? Because it’s sort of funny, and because some day, someone is going to google ‘showering after a …

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Mar 25

I still can’t look

It’s been 10 days. Yesterday, i had a different kind of soreness than I’ve had until now and I thought I might have a wound-infection. The only way to know would be to look for redness and feel for heat. I was able to put my hand on it and feel for heat, but I …

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Mar 20

24 hours and one home-care assistant later

So we called in the professionals. My husband called a couple of places and we found one that could send someone this morning at 8 am. A home-care specialist, not quite a nurse, but knew exactely what to do with the drains and the gauze and the polysporin, even had her own little trick to make …

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Mar 19

That did not go well

saw the plastic surgeon this morning. was REALLY hoping he would take the drains out, at least 2 of them. I’ve heard every story: some had all drains removed the first week, some 2, some none. I thought I was doing so well, draining so little, I was totally going to be one of the …

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Feb 18

the things that worry me

in no particular order: the wound. The scars don’t scare me at all, but the wound, the bandages, all that gory stuff – yuck. the drains – see above re yucky stuff possibly not being able to knit at first due to either pain or the drains having short hair – this one is weird, …

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