Jan 10

Last January vs This January

Last January, I went to watch me eldest in her last school play at the old school before she switched mid-year to what turned out to be such a better fit for her.

Last night, I went to watch my youngest make her debut in the school play, with the eldest sitting beside me, with her hair streaks and makeup…. oy!

Last January at the school play, I knew I had *something* in my breast, but only 3 friends knew. I barely remember watching the play, I remember having to focus so hard on my daughter, because it was her last time, but having difficulty because my mind kept wandering to my chest.

Last night I sat there, with most of it behind be, watching every tiny move my little one made (and my husband! he’s got a great role in the show). My mind was clear and I was there, 100%.

Last January I was working like a mad women, I was running all over the place trying to get my ducks in a row and prepare for the ‘what-ifs’.

This week, I went to work for 2 days. 2 glorious days of rearranging the store layout and looking at catalogues and making a window display.


The rest of January is going to be filled with daily reminders: the day we got our Retailer of the Year Award, the day I got the call confirming the cancer, the day I booked my mastectomy.

It’s also going to be filled with new mini-milestones: I’ve already gone skiing and snow shoeing, I’ll be trying to work more (some from home, I gotta be reasonable).

I’m hoping over the years, I won’t remember EVERY SINGLE thing that happened in January 2013.


  1. Donna

    My experience has been that the memories do fade a bit but having had cancer will always be a part of who I am. It changed my perspective on things mostly for the positive. I don’t let things bug me now. I couldn’t say that when I was going through treatment but I can say it now.

  2. Liz

    It does fade, like everything else. Some year you will post a “I forgot that yesterday was the anniversary of…” and then you will really feel great!

    I love the hair color! It is bright and pretty.

  3. Facing Cancer Together

    Cheers to that!

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